About ME :(

I found that im not a zhudong de ren.I will not take inisiative* to do something.*seperti pahat dengan penukul*.As what she said,i will not take the first move.For example when i argue with someone else,i will not take action as long as i think im the right one.I know that im selfish.and very 自我中心.A BOY*i do not want to mention your name anymore*once told me,everyone is selfish.but i think im TOOO SELFISH. Learning to be SELFLESS.haha not that serious lah! So from today onwards i will start learning to be KIND abit and dont be so selfish.

Besides,I should have my own opinion toward a matter.For example,when this side is saying they are the right one actually then i will agree.Then when the another side tell me that they are the right one then i will agree with them too! When HE say OWH SHE IS BAD! then i will follow..OH YEA SHE IS BAD! but when SHE says HE IS BAD! then i will follow also.OWH HE IS BAD!!So confusing.I have no my own thought and will just listen to other people.So i think some people might think that im a FAKER? when im at this side i help them and when im in the another side i help them pulakz?! SEE i do not have my pendirian.I feel im such a failure.Have been breathing for almost 17 years but still do not how to THINK!

Honestly now i do not hate or angry anyone.Just when the matter occur,that that moment im really very angry.but after few minutes i will forget about it.Dont you think angry or hate someone is such a waste of time and energy?I am telling the truth now.It is me.If you think im just acting here then itu pasal kamu.I dont think i have to lie to my bloggie.
okays.For example when she told me that she do not want the T-shirt and i was quite behsong but after that i never think about it anymore.Now i feel like the distance between me and her very farrrr.Hope some day we can have a nice talk and just tell out how we feel toward each other.

Besides,im a very sensitive person.Even if 1 yan shen,can make me think alot.I have a very bad attitude too.I am not a responsible person.Sometimes i feel like being a very responsible student but i always fail because i will not be serious in anything.This is the thing that i always want to change but until today im still fail to do it.Munyee is a very VERY VERY responsible person.This is the main thing that i admire her the most! I wish i can be like her one day.

These are PART of my weaknesses.Yea just PART!Wish i can change it.I wish i can be a good girl as i want my life to be successful!


Share with me if you found my other weakness(es)!!!
Duh just leave a comment to give some opinions.haha i might get hurt of your words but i will try to accept it.I must face it bravely as THATS ME! HENGWEI!!!!